Hello again! It’s been a while — longer than usual. How have you been?
If we were having tea, I’d tell you that this past week away from the blog I didn’t get nearly as much behind-the-scenes work done as I had hoped. I had planned to write at least six posts so I’d be two weeks ahead, and I was all excited to spend tons of time finally catching up on reading other blogs as well. Nope! I’ve written a total of two posts, and have mostly been reading about blogging itself, especially since I’m getting all set up on my new site. That’s basically all I’ve been doing!
Speaking of which… what do you think of it so far?
If we were having tea, I’d tell you that I miss you. I didn’t realize how much I rely on you to clear my mind and keep myself present and happy. It’s a nice reminder of why I’m doing it, too. Though I’d love to make some money from it, that’s not what it’s all about. Surprise: it’s about you! (Yes, you! Bet you weren’t expecting that!) I didn’t realize it, but lately I’ve been noticing that the best part of blogging is connecting with you, you who join me time and time again, letting me know that what I do has an impact beyond what it does for me. It’s much bigger than that. My little corner here is starting to feel like a real community, and it’s a great feeling. So here’s to you! Thanks for always coming back to see me. I promise I’ll visit you more often too!
If we were having tea, I’d ask if you celebrate Christmas, and if you do, how was it? What do you do to celebrate? My Christmas was all right. Actually, it was I think the best Christmas I’ve had since my family started going to that church. This year, they didn’t go every evening from the 20th-30th like they have been for the past three years. We were actually able to spend time together, and it was really nice! On Christmas Eve they did have service, but I went to my nani’s — nani is Hindi for maternal grandmother — and spent time with some relatives I hadn’t seen in a really long time. In fact, a lot of them used to go the church but don’t anymore… it seems like my extended family no longer goes except for one cousin. I don’t now what changed, but for me, I finally wasn’t lonely. I finally had a happy Christmas Eve. After that, I was alone all day the 25th-27th, but at least now that they live so close to the church, the latest they’re home is usually six instead of midnight or later like before. Last night it was later, but I can live with that. We can still spend much more time together than we have been over the past few years. I just spent my time working on the blog anyway.
If we were having tea, I’d tell you that I think the greatest improvement with my family is how we treat each other. They don’t pressure me anymore, and they respect me. I’m better at doing the same for them too… though sometimes I worry that if they found this blog, they’d be upset. (They do know I’ve written about them and how I feel, so they wouldn’t be surprised, but still.) This year, we’re able to laugh and do things like go see Christmas lights and watch terrible Christmas movies all day, just like before. Finally, I’m not miserable and bitter around them. It still sucks to be so far away from my actual hometown — now that I’m two hours away by transit, it’s difficult to try to visit anyone besides my immediate family. Still, this is as good as it’s going to get I think. I hope it lasts.
If we were having tea, I’d tell you we had to spend Christmas away from little Matrix. He’s in good hands, but I do miss him! No pictures of him today. Instead, meet my baby boy from home: Tank! (I know, we’re great with the names aren’t we? We actually call him Tankie, because look at him… he ain’t no tank.)
If we were having tea, I’d tell you I’m happy to be back. I feel like so much has happened in my one week away… what did I miss on your end?