Somehow up here in Canada, the snow is melting and it’s not even that cold. But still, I love me some hot tea — come join me!
(Also, be impressed. That shit rhymed.)
If we were having tea, I’d tell you this past week I’ve still been feeling stressed and I don’t know why. Even though I have no real obligations when I come home, I still have this feeling of being behind. Hopefully, it’s just a residual effect of NaBloPoMo, but man, am I ever looking forward to the holidays.
If we were having tea, I’d tell you that Matrix is now six months old! Halfway to being a fully grown cat, and he’s still getting bigger. This next month will be tough for him as his teeth grow in, but he’s comfy in our home now. He knows what he’s allowed to bite and what he’s not, and he doesn’t scratch anything besides his scratching post. And he has started kneading his little paws on us now! It’s the cutest feeling, gentle loving presses on my tummy and my legs. He’s been doing it to both G and I pretty much every morning this week, and it makes me so happy!
If we were having tea, I’d tell you Matrix has also been a little shit this past week, the worst he’s ever been I think. He’s been harassing us for our food during dinner, and sometimes he even manages to snag some out of our hands and run off. It hasn’t been fun having to chase him and teach him not to do it. He does know what “no” means, the bugger! Do you have any suggestions? The solution so far has been to eat at the kitchen table and not at the couch while watching TV… it’s much easier to catch him that way. But it’s annoying to have to change our plans.
If we were having tea, I’d ask what your plans are for the holidays. Are you looking forward to it? It’s starting to settle in my mind that I’ll be home soon. I’m slowly remembering what that means for me, too. It’s really easy for me to forget how insane my family life is when I’m away from them, living my own life. I fill my life with things that make me happy and I keep myself busy, so I don’t really need to think about it. I still talk to them at least once or twice a week, too, so it’s not like I’m totally ignoring them. It’s just not in my face, so I forget. But in the last few days I’ve been remembering what Christmas has been like in the last couple years, and I’m not sure what it’ll be like this year. Maybe it’ll be better because now they live ten minutes away, so less time will be wasted traveling. Maybe it’ll suck because since they’re so close, they’ll go more often. I don’t know. Are you looking forward to family time?
If we were having tea, I’d tell you that on a related note I’m sorry I’m not hyped up about Christmas like everyone else is. Last night I was watching one of the Christmas episodes The Flash from the first season, and one of the characters isn’t all that happy. After he grumbled off, Barry asks what’s up with him, and they explain that the previous Christmas was hard for him, so Christmas isn’t the same for him anymore. I asked G if I’m negative because of what Christmas has been like for me, and he says I haven’t, but I don’t believe him. I get more than the usual Christmas stress… and Christmas has sucked for me. It isn’t the same for me anymore. I’ve been shitty about it, and I know that. I’m better, for sure — the last couple years I straight up hated the lights, the cheer, the stupid music, and I think I made myself annoying to be around, but now I can appreciate a lot of it. It brings back happy memories, even though I don’t feel like I’m making new happy memories. But I’m still not excited like I used to be, and I really hope I”m not spreading negativity. I just live in my memories around this time of year instead, which is an unusual combination of happy and sad. How does the Christmas season affect you? Do you experience a lot of Christmas stress?
If we were having tea, I’d tell you that overall I’ve been doing really well. I’m organizing my life a little better so that I can have more time — to do lists ftw! — and financially, I’m feeling better as well. Unfortunately, this month is weird because the pay periods are funny due to the holidays. I get paid again on the 18th and then not again until the end of January — and the pay period for the 18th payday is half as long as normal. Luckily I’ve been getting lots of work, but it means I still need to be careful so that whatever I get on the 18th gets me all the way through January… whoo! It’s a little frustrating: I’m finally back on my feet, but thanks to only getting paid monthly, I still feel poor. I should be fine anyway, though. I finally have stuff in my savings! (And thank goodness for not having to buy groceries over the holidays. Yay family!)
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